Cathy,

I'm so sorry for your loss.

Tomorrow will be one month since I lost my mother.  Even though I'm well into adulthood it brings up alot of emotions.  I read also that grieving is a process.  There is no time limit and each person grieves in their own way.  

I am very grateful for the BTD way of eating.  I also have not yet gotten my secretor status which I will do very soon.  I  am a procastinator in some ways.

Eating well and taking care of yourself does not replace or stamp out grief.  I believe it just gives you a better perspective at some point (and that is different for each of us) to go through the process.


Joy

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Cathy,

I'm so sorry for your loss.

Tomorrow will be one month since I lost my mother.  Even though I'm well into adulthood it brings up alot of emotions.  I read also that grieving is a process.  There is no time limit and each person grieves in their own way.  

I am very grateful for the BTD way of eating.  I also have not yet gotten my secretor status which I will do very soon.  I  am a procastinator in some ways.

Eating well and taking care of yourself does not replace or stamp out grief.  I believe it just gives you a better perspective at some point (and that is different for each of us) to go through the process.


Joy

I first say, my heart goes out to you, Joy...May God be your strength.

Thank you Joy for your words of encouragement.  I have been struggling with hurring up the process which actually is an added stress.  I have been having certain individuals that I see a few times a week giving my husband and I the feeling that we should be over the grieving and enjoying other peoples babies.  I told this one individual that it just adds to the burden and makes it a bit heavier to handle.  So I am feeling the preasure to "get over it".   That was the "branch" that I cut off my tree because I saw it was causing more frustration and hurt.  What you folks are saying of letting life, and grieving to takes it's course in it's timing sounds a lot easier to handle then having to rush the process because others think that we should be "dancing" right now.

I agree about sticking to the BTD.  I have been through some tremedously huge trials in the past 6 years.  Being on the BTD gave my physical strength to "fight" the battles.  I am excited and am anxious to see how eating well for my blood type will be like once I get my body rid of these toxins.  

I now have been on the detox for about 2 1/2 weeks.  I am feeling a lot better emotionally, I am Soooooo thankful for that.  I read the recent blog from Erika.  There she mentioned how sadness settles in the lungs and that crying releases that sadness that settles in there.  Now I see why crying is actually very benificial.
Since I've been on the detox I now can enjoy eating the veggies like I used to.  I don't feel so sick and tired and worthless any more.  
This past Monday I had a bout with being very upset with grieving I then called my nutritionist and talked to her about it.  She mentioned that I'm going to have the hardest times around the holidays....that didn't even cross my mind.  She also said that since I went through such a trauma mentally and physically my hormones are still way out of whack so I will have upside down days once in a while.  I won't be able to stop them.  She said I was feeling what is normal.  That made me laugh...I'M NORMALl!  Ha Ha!!  

Your nutritionist sounds awesome, stick with her.  Erika is also completely awesome and I love her blogs!!!  I totally agree about how healing crying is.

Hang in there, you are doing very well with it all, I think.

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Cathy,

You really are doing well.  I agree with PT.  Your timing for dealing with your grief and loss is just right.  You brought it to the board because you were ready to let us help you deal with it.  Just know that we are here for you and we care about you.

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Peggy

Cathy,

It's so lovely to follow and watch your progress and growth.

(((((((((hugs)))))))))

Keep it up girl!!!!    

Ah, thanks, gals!  

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Your nutritionist sounds awesome, stick with her.  Erika is also completely awesome and I love her blogs!!!  I totally agree about how healing crying is.

Hang in there, you are doing very well with it all, I think.

((((((((((((((((hug)))))))))))))))))

My nutritionist is very kind hearted.  I am thankful for her.  She takes time to listen....so differant than any other doctor I've had.  

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Cathy,

You really are doing well.  I agree with PT.  Your timing for dealing with your grief and loss is just right.  You brought it to the board because you were ready to let us help you deal with it.  Just know that we are here for you and we care about you.

{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}

Peggy

Before I started this thread I was about to go nuts because of the confusion I was having with why the BTD wasn't helping me out.  Why was I feeling so bad?  Why was I so depressed?  Why were my bene's actually making me feel so sick?  I did not know then that I was so full of toxins!  It blows my mind away.  I knew also I needed help in sticking with the BTD.  I knew where to go to get help.  Thank you all for your encouragement, prayers, and thoughts for me.  I know I'm no way at the end of the trail but at least I have strength to go on now.
I have been incorperating Aloe Vera in my diet.  I eat it every day.  I did a little research on it yesterday and found that Aloe is the vegetable that has the highest amount of B12 in it.  I read also how it cleans up the gut and clears stomach cancer!  I've been looking for recipes to using the Aloe leaves.  I have been cutting up the leaf and mixing it in my sauteed veggies.  Does any one else eat aloe vera?

Cathy, I'm new to this board and just came across this thread....words fail me....I have tears in my eyes....the loss you experienced is huge....I'm offering my sincerest sympathies for the tragedy and trauma you've endured....I haven't read through all the posts here, only the first few... so probably this has been said....take the time you need to feel the pain/angst of your loss...as I believe the only way past something is through it....the heartache of a mother....may the One Above comfort you among the mourners of Zion and Jerusalem (translated from the hebrew text said to mourners)....hugs to you...be kind to yourself....take care,

Thank you, diffy, for your thoughts and prayers.  I have found that going though this mountain of grief has been the most difficult thing I've ever been through.  I look at the pictures of my little Joel and I quickly turn away...the pain is still there.  

My strengths are up and I am so thankful for that.  God is my strength and my deliverer!

Thanks diffy, again for the hugs thoughts and cares!

The memorial garden I planted for Joel and my other two is doing really well now.  It is so neat to see my helebores coming up.  It bloomed a little but the frost came a couple of weeks ago and burned the bud.  But at least the root stock is well and is growing.  I just noticed today while I was picking the violets that are blooming in the garden, that my bleeding heart is now about 3 inches high.  I brought the violets in and set them in a very tiny tea cup.  It looks so pretty.  Violets are the flower for month of February, so they are very special to me. Every time I look at them I can remember Joel by them; a smile comes on my face.

I am now getting anxious to plant new flowers in this memorial garden, this year.  It is mostly in shade....under a huge oak tree I call "TreeBeard".  

So glad for the warmer temps....there is always hope!!

 I worked out in my memorial garden this week and got the weeds pulled out.  I was able to buy another statue for my second child that I lost.  I have it tucked in the flowers.  Now I need one more...I'm thinking the first one may have been a girl.  I put up my humming bird feeder today.  It may be a bit to early but at least it looks nice hanging in the memorial garden.  

Here it is getting close to Mother's day.  I feel for those that have lost a child or a mother.  For those who have, we are in it together. It's going to be a hard time...again. This Mother's day I will probably be working, putting floral arrangements together.  That will help keep my mind occupied for a few hours.  

I can just picture how lovely your memorial garden looks!
with all the love you ve put into the project.
you are in my prayers.

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I can just picture how lovely your memorial garden looks!
with all the love you ve put into the project.
you are in my prayers.

Thank you, Lola.  I'd love to somehow show pictures of my garden on this forum but I haven't quite figured it out.

it is easy.......if you have the pictures in your pc.......
you download them in either photobucket, or yahoo album, or whatever Internet address is available and free.

then you just copy paste the picture address in between the codes given here, to post a picture....like the smiles some post around here.

right click on the picture will give you the address you copy paste.

maybe someone can help explain it better.....

ok..., I was working on getting it loaded into my Kodak album on line but the picture didn't show up, just an icon.  I will try again

press the reply button down here and the press the image code....
make sure the address to your picture in in between the code appearing on your screen, and that there are no empty spaces

I hope the picture shows up for you all.
This is a picture of a statue that was given to me right after Joel died.  We lost our dog less than a month before we lost Joel so, for this little tike to be holding a puppy means a lot.

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I hope the picture shows up for you all.
This is a picture of a statue that was given to me right after Joel died.  We lost our dog less than a month before we lost Joel so, for this little tike to be holding a puppy means a lot.

No picutre, Cathy, but here's something from MoDon on how to post an image...
CLICK

Well, I had it but then I lost it.  I will try again

Quoted from Cathy

Well, I had it but then I lost it.  I will try again

Cathy, check the Preview button before posting to make sure it's really there.

yes, I can see it, lovely!!

right click on the icon and press view image!
it works!


there you did it!
thanks Cathy for sharing!

Yay! I can see it too, after I clicked on the image and chose 'View Image'. Very nice picture, Cathy.

I've been wanting to share this picture for so long!  Thanks for helping, Drea and Lola!!  

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I've been wanting to share this picture for so long!

WOW. Something about that picture struck a deep chord with me. Huge emotions came welling up. I was hesitant to post at first, but I think it's good to get things out.