I wonder If I was depressed? Yet I feel so much more enthusiastic about participating in living, since I (stopped years ago to use white sugar )
and now, as of late, taking two spoons of oil twice a day.. (1 hour away from food for diet purposes) does take incessant thinking of food away...
I think the ability to change how my body and my stomach functions is making me much more sure of who I am, and so .. some hopelessness is no longer there.
I think as I am solving my body issues I am much more able to enjoy life.
I have been successful in treating bad shoulder damage with prolo-therapy, the same for chronic back issues.
I have had success with occasional use of 5HTP.. to develop a emotional backbone to stand up for ME.
Recently when I lost my brother, I took (right away) some 5 mg Valium (I always keep a few around for just such occasions) .. I just did not wish to become overwhelmed while I had to talk to all sort of people. I had plenty of time to 'feel' the loss, at other more convenient times. I think (in my case) planning ahead for such once every few years need of emotional support, helps ME.
I also have some other item from my doctor for when I know I will encounter a person or incidence which will be very unpleasant. Like planning for a job evaluation. (sorry I forgot the name and just now can not remember where I might have them, but that also helps to not get caught up in what I call 'circular' thinking.
One other mayor support system comes in the form of ondamedworld - look it up. Taking away cramps, and or supports many other body issues, feeling supported in body and mind, reduces stress greatly.
In talking to others, I am coming more and more to the conclusion, that besides attending 90 meetings in 90 days at any AA meeting place will teach anyone willing to learn how to cope. It is valuable, yet, cheap therapy, and available even online.
Depression is a horrid feeling -- I (by my nature) always taken the 'active' participation as my best way out. Just to get up and wash dishes helps, taking a walk, or calling a friend, or volunteering makes all the difference.
Sorry all those things require some money-- I feel for those who have none-- a whole different experience, when the only food on their table might be form the food pantry or the soup kitchen.. (ours feeds 1-200 daily) and we are a small community. I have no idea how those poor people cope. A neighborly cup of coffee might mean a great deal.
I do appreciate the friends who stand by when there is a momentary need for a voice to know that I can reach out. (and, most of the time I am not even depressed) even small sadness needs a friend.
Finally... people who are critical just because they can be, or think they have a right to be, or have a self righteous need to be critical... Well, never give them space in your head-- let no one rent space in your head --, unless you take pleasure in them. Better to be alone, then be aggravated or put down.
Many have a need, their need, to fulfill in their own lives and they lash out.. But you/I do not have to take them serious, nor attach much importance, most often it is their own 'needs' that make 'them'critical or act 'superior' -- all the while they risk losing a friend. Their loss.
Never hang with those who have a need to annoy your inner Self.. Leave ugly on the side of the road.
gee.... this became a long post - despite my feeling well. Might be I was depressed here and there? Yes, but mostly when feeling like a victim.
(Self inflicted or real) victims are lethal to ones Mental Health.. coffee in one hand and a cigarette in the other used to be the way people solved the need to do 'something' ...Stay away from them..
The antidote is : Proper food (BTD) most of the time, or a good piece of chocolate! and on old movie or a good book.
OK enough.... this is a serious discussion.. yet I am serious also.