well, today I did hot yoga and then kickboxing. I was starving when I came home. I had a large salad with canned salmon, olive oil, and then half a piece of chicken breast.... still was hungry so I had some walnuts and two tablespoons of almond butter. Now, the guilt is kicking in...... but I bet I burned 1000 calories today at the gym.

Interesting about the peppers.. maybe I am better off without. I know carrots do a number of things to me and totally make me unstable.

I am just frustrated in general with eating and dieting. I might just take a break and not eat for awhile... I know I will not starve to death that is for sure.

and.. I totally think it was psychological and I really could have stopped eating after the salad with salmon. Very sad.

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well, today I did hot yoga and then kickboxing. I was starving when I came home. I had a large salad with canned salmon, olive oil, and then half a piece of chicken breast.... still was hungry so I had some walnuts and two tablespoons of almond butter. Now, the guilt is kicking in...... but I bet I burned 1000 calories today at the gym.

Interesting about the peppers.. maybe I am better off without. I know carrots do a number of things to me and totally make me unstable.

I am just frustrated in general with eating and dieting. I might just take a break and not eat for awhile... I know I will not starve to death that is for sure.

Possibly you were too hungry, ate too fast, so your body didn't catch up with you having enough - OR - you really did need that much food, but now you are feeling guilty because you THINK that you ate too much and can't maintain your artificially thin build???

I don't know you well enough to know, but remembering some of the issues you've had, I wonder if you're still fighting those "I'm too big worries", when there really isn't anything wrong with your size.

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Possibly you were too hungry, ate too fast, so your body didn't catch up with you having enough - OR - you really did need that much food, but now you are feeling guilty because you THINK that you ate too much and can't maintain your artificially thin build???

I don't know you well enough to know, but remembering some of the issues you've had, I wonder if you're still fighting those "I'm too big worries", when there really isn't anything wrong with your size.

Yes. I still struggle a little bit with ED. However, I think I ate too fast and probably feel guilty for not appreciating my food and chewing slowly. I was angry and I am not sure why... much to do with procrastination on starting my studies.

I think my weight is ok and it would take alot to really pack on the pounds... much more about how I felt so bloated afterwards.

Thanks for listening and replying, it really makes a difference for me.

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I was angry and I am not sure why... much to do with procrastination on starting my studies.

There is a fine line between procrastination and getting some off-time away from books to avoid "studies burnout"...  I found I had to take Sunday off from the books to keep from entering the burnout zone when doing college year-round...  You have to find out what works for you.  

Just remember that you need good meals and adequate "fuel" intake to maintain healthy gut and brain function.  Never underestimate the need for good food on a regular schedule...

Anger won't help either instance, so it is always best to do the best you can without stressing over it.

Joe is very smart and it is a good idea to really listen to what he has to say...

Before BTD I used to obsess over counting calories to try to maintain my weight, it never worked. Now I eat what I want when I want it. Once in a while I over eat, it doesn't seem to make any difference, I stay the same size, or if I gain an ounce it's gone soon enough, it all balances out.

I too am in school. Sometimes I find it difficult to take a break, but I need breaks or I burn out.

I'm an exercise physiologist, hot yoga is not good for your joints, it softens and stretches the articular cartilage, which cannot bounce back.

Just remember, your body goes through cleansing times and rebuilding/nourishing times. We all have days when were hungrier than others. I allow myself to eat on the hungry days, obviously nourishing foods, and then there are days I'm not so hungry and I certainly don't jam food for the sake of it. I also have times, like between 3 and 4 that I am exceptionally hungry. That is the time I eat the largest. Follow your bodies lead. A large salad with salmon and a bit of olive oil with some nuts/butters is actually not a lot of food. Then you have to add in all the exercise. Your engine needs gas..

I eat baked sweet potato with ghee and crushed almonds every night as my dessert.  Love it!  And it makes me nicely sleepy at bedtime.

Marjorie, I don't know what your SWAMI advises, but my suspicion is that you are not getting nearly enough fat.  Unless you are especially making a point of eating fatty fish regularly.  I think a little dry poultry and dry fish and salads is going to leave anyone feeling unsatisfied.  And what is typically in your salads?  Are they loaded with good substantial foods?  An assortment of vegetables including dark green?  Sprouts, seeds?  Extra Virgin Olive Oil?  (I drizzle it on straight;  no complicated dressings needed)

It's likely that you don't get enough protein.  How about going back and checking on the SWAMI recommendations for all your food groups and see how your choices compare.  Of course you don't have to eat everything, or as much of everything as is recommended, but if you're in the habit of trying to rationalize why Dr. D's suggestions for you are not appropriate for you, I believe you will continue to be frustrated and out of balance.

I also don't think you get enough carbohydrates.  It does not have to be grains, but unless your SWAMI restricts grains, rethink that one.  No matter how much protein and veggies you eat, they won't replace the deep satisfaction that carefully chosen carbs will give you.

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I eat baked sweet potato with ghee and crushed almonds every night as my dessert.  Love it!  And it makes me nicely sleepy at bedtime.

Marjorie, I don't know what your SWAMI advises, but my suspicion is that you are not getting nearly enough fat.  Unless you are especially making a point of eating fatty fish regularly.  I think a little dry poultry and dry fish and salads is going to leave anyone feeling unsatisfied.  And what is typically in your salads?  Are they loaded with good substantial foods?  An assortment of vegetables including dark green?  Sprouts, seeds?  Extra Virgin Olive Oil?  (I drizzle it on straight;  no complicated dressings needed)

It's likely that you don't get enough protein.  How about going back and checking on the SWAMI recommendations for all your food groups and see how your choices compare.  Of course you don't have to eat everything, or as much of everything as is recommended, but if you're in the habit of trying to rationalize why Dr. D's suggestions for you are not appropriate for you, I believe you will continue to be frustrated and out of balance.

I also don't think you get enough carbohydrates.  It does not have to be grains, but unless your SWAMI restricts grains, rethink that one.  No matter how much protein and veggies you eat, they won't replace the deep satisfaction that carefully chosen carbs will give you.

Thank you so much. I think you are all so supportive, and I need to step back and see what is really going here.. it might be more that I am not eating enough of anything.

I also wonder if the flax bread this am, threw me off. I will write more tomorrow when I have some rest. I am questioning alot in my life right now, and food is one of them. However, I do know if I do not eat, then I cant think and how will I get through this program if I dont have good nourishing foods?? One thing was for sure today, I was not in a good frame of mind because my digestive process was off. And... when the gut hurts, then how can I think straight.


BALANCE, BALANCE is all I keep telling myself. IT is my new mantra