Sassy, I was thinking about you just now. I'm eating lunch and I had just grabbed something at the HFS on my lunch break after getting gas in the car. My nemesis is chips and anything chip-like. Lately, I've been doing really well at choosing vegetables such as salad greens, veggie soups, broccoli florets, etc., or fruits instead of chips. Anyway, today instead of a Golden Delicious, I got my first Macintosh apple in years and I am thoroughly enjoying re-experiencing their wonder. I had totally forgotten how amazing a really good Macintosh apple is. WOW. I thought of you because, I was thinking: I know it is an avoid and, as Victoria points out, avoids are avoids for reasons so ideally they all should be avoided 100% of the time, but in my opinion, not all avoids are created equal, just like not all individual humans are created to thrive on the same foods. BTDers, of all people, understand that each food is "an individual", and you can't just lump "avoids" in as one lump group wherein each individual member is the same in degree of unhealthiness for you. It would be better for me if I were on a compliant-fruit kick right now instead of an apple kick (I have been having beneficial and neutral fruits for my type, too, lately, such as pineapple, banana, etc., don't get me wrong, but I mean my apple kick is an "avoid kick" in the most literal sense), but: isn't it far, far, far better that I'm choosing to grab a Macintosh apple with lunch instead of choosing to get my "crisp" fix by grabbing a bag of lectin-laden, high-glycemic, high-carb, high-fat (yet so delicious *lol*!) chips?
What I'm saying is, don't be too hard on yourself when you do the best you can. Strive for the ideal when possible, but when faced with less than ideal choices, just make the best choice you can, and sometimes when you just plain want to choose a little less than ideally, that's okay, too...it is all about variety and sustainability over the long haul. I feel good about my apple, especially when I think about some of the worse choices I could have made (organic apple versus potato chips...hmmmm, they don't seem identical in unhealthiness to this O nonnie!). You are already making some really good changes. Be proud of yourself!