Cassandra Dwight

I'm trying to calm down and be patient as I wait for my phone to ring, hopefully telling me that I have the job I interviewed for yesterday. It's already rung three times today, meaning that I leap over furniture and cats and try not to spill breakfast or my water glass trying to get to it in time. No luck. Twice it was my new neighbor needing to talk about stuff related to the futon or other 'just moved in' kinds of things.

The other call was my singing coach asking me if I'd like to take part in a workshop and showcase that will start in late February. Assuming that I can come up with the money for it, I'd like to do it. But aack, that means that I'll have to sing in public, too, the thought of which just terrifies me. However, if I've learned anything in this life, I've learned that when it comes to being afraid of things like this, the more afraid I am of it, the more I should do it. Since I was filled with panic at the thought of doing it, I told my singing coach that if I get this job, I'll do it.

So now I am waiting for the phone to ring, and trying not to stuff my face with all the dark chocolate I have in my apartment. I'm usually pretty good about managing my stress in ways other than eating, but today the chocolate urge is rearing its ugly side.

I do need to get out of the apartment and go run some errands, and since it is a gorgeous SoCal kind of day out there (70s and sunny) I think I'll walk. I realized a few weeks ago that I haven't been eating enough vegetables, so I'm trying to get more into my diet, so I need to get some today because all I have in the fridge right now is two very sad looking carrots, a couple of parsnips, one onion, and a handful of salad greens. I want artichokes, spinach, kale, okra, green beans - SOMETHING GREEN! I also have a Christmas gift to exchange at the mall, and walking these two errands is only about 2 miles round trip, so that's a good start on some exercise today.

Never did exercise yesterday - by the time I got done with my interview and talking with my neighbor for the futon, it was 12:30 am, and then I had stuff to do around here, so it was about 3am when I finally got to sleep.

By the way, my interview yesterday was VERY informal, and nearly three hours. We just chatted about darn near everything - adoption, her dog, my cats, her brothers, her parents, my brother, losing weight, my broken leg, working out at the gym we both go to, and a little bit about the job. It was the oddest interview I'd ever had, but also the most enjoyable.

Woke up when my cell phone rang this morning and I leaped over a cat and out of bed to get it before it went to voice mail. It was a jarring way to wake up, but I was VERY glad I did. It was the woman from HR at the company I interviewed with on Friday confirming my second interview for later today. So now I'm up and dressed and getting ready to run errands before I come home to get ready for this interview. I REALLY want this position! It's perfect for me to be able to work on my acting career AND have a full-time job that pays the bills, too. What will be a challenge, but that I also consider an asset to the position is that the hours are from midnight to 8:30 in the morning. I do think it will be a challenge to get enough sleep and continue my workout routine and manage to eat right while working these hours, but if it means that I have time to audition during the day, I'm up for it!

I'm also a bit puffy today, probably from the cookies I ate yesterday. My best friend's 91 year old grandmother gave me some of her fabulous cookies for Christmas, and of course I'm eating them! They are almost gone now, and soon my kitchen will be compliant once again. In general, I'm working my way back to being as close to 100% compliant as possible because things got pretty lax around here over the holidays. I did manage not to gain any weight because I was (and still am) working out really heavily. I didn't LOSE any weight, though, and I still have about 15 pounds to lose from when I broke my leg last year and wasn't allowed to do any weight bearing exercise for about 9 months. I was eating everything in sight during that time, and it sure wasn't BTD compliant! I gained about 25 pounds in total, and I've lost 10, but I still have a ways to go.

Today's going to be a busy day - I've got to get to my PO Box to pick up my mail and to (FINALLY!) mail my mother's Christmas presents, run a few more errands, get back home by 4pm to de-fur my futon to sell it to my new neighbor and then help him move it down the hall to his place, then get ready for my interview and get over there by 8pm. I think the new neighbor wants to go out with me. Not sure how I feel about that - we'll see what happens!

Shoot. I just realized I won't be able to go to yoga class tonight at 8:30 because I'll be in my interview. I'll just have to do a DVD at home tonight. And I think I can squeeze in a long walk before dark and between getting the futon down the hall and dressing for my interview.

It's time for food now - I'm thinking a buffalo burger and a salad for lunch.

Just got back from the PO and a friend of mine (who I only met last month when I was visiting my uncle in Texas) is a big fat sweetie and sent me an initial purse 'just 'cuz' and enclosed the nicest note about enjoying the time we spent together and wanting to get to know me better. She knew I'd been thinking about getting one of those purses, and she happened to find one, so she sent it to me! Very thoughtful.