2/9/04 9:34 AM

So, after a somewhat excessive weekend, I am working on getting back on track and in the BTD groove today. Saturday was really fun, though. Hubby and I went out with another couple to a Japanese joint here called Sushi/Zushi. It was DELICIOUS. They had SO many choices and I tried a bunch of them. Ate (deep fried, unfortunately) soft-shell crab, a bunch of different rolls (filled with avoids, I am afraid), seaweed salad, dessert and, of course, sake. The sake was delicious. It was infused with ginger and served chilled.

It was definitely a meal that was off of the BTD, and filled with avoids, but it was also strange because it was filled with bennies, too. I figure that they sort of cancel each other out. While I ate a few bites of tempura, I got a great does of seaweed. Where there was cream cheese, there was also yellowtail tuna. While there was sake, I also drank some really great green tea.

The only thing that really seemed to negatively affect me was the few bits of tempura. I have really been away from wheat completely - so much so that just a little seems to affect me. Of course, I would – naturally – be out of deflect O. Note to self: order more deflect O.

While I DID lift do an hour on the elliptical and lift weights on Friday, I did not work out this weekend. I was just plain lazy. I’m going today.

I hate getting up at 6:30 AM. I especially hate getting up at 6:30 AM on Mondays. When I had my period last week, I got my daughter off on the bus then headed back to bed. I tell you, I want to do that SO much right now, but it is becoming a habit and I don’t want that habit. Even though I feel tired right now and my bed is calling, I am sticking it out. My workout is at 12:30 and I am NOT going back to bed before then. This week is a week for me to get back on schedule and back on program and going back to bed is not a part of that program.

So, since I want to sleep really badly right now, I think that I am going to walk outside a bit.

I got a little into sugar this weekend and I am SURE that that has something to do with how I am feeling this moment, let alone that it ruins my resolve regarding my diet. It such a weird process. We KNOW that certain things are triggers, that certain things will, without doubt, create a certain body response, yet we continue to do them. Change is really hard. I have to keep reminding myself that I have only been on the BTD for 4 months and not to get too crazy. I have to remind myself that I have my lifetime to “get it right” and, moreover, that each moment is perfection in and of itself. That there is no “getting it right”. My belief is that there is only the experience. I really don’t want to experience feeling tired or having cravings, and, yet, the only way to avoid that is to stick on program.

Well, just got a call from my daughter’s school – she has a fever, so I am off to pick her up. So much for the “best of plans”! I still hope that I get to work out, but it doesn’t look good. Only if hubby is home. I am going to research herbs for the flu. I have had such good luck using herbs rather than traditional medicine this year, that I am going to continue on with their use. I’ll let you know how it goes.