Archives for: January 2009, 11
I had one of those dreams again last night, the one where I am yelling at my sisters trying to convince them to at least read the information and try the GTD for a few months. I cry and rant in the dream and wake up in tears. Sometimes I am sweaty from the whole thing, I am always sad.
I know I have been through this more times then I can count, it is a constant thread in my life that seems to bother me over and over again. My dreams reveal my inner unresolved thoughts that circle around in my brain. I am never sure what triggers these dreams, something I ate, something someone said to me or even a movie.
During my morning walk with the dog I have these internal conversations, or more aptly talk to myself. I of course am both people, my sisters and myself, in them I try and come up with ways to gently convince them to give it a try. I recite letters I have written to them in my mind, I slip the book into their homes unnoticed or I am much more direct.
I always succeed in these private conversations with myself, but real life is not the same.
My sisters both think they eat well and right. One is a vegan and the other a SAD follower who is calorie conscious and leans towards the whole foods idea, both are O Gatherers. I believe, as Peter says, Gatherers ride a slippery slope in this world, of abundant calories. I see the future issues that may arise from the way they eat, one with not enough protein and the other who keeps excercising and cutting calories.
Food is a hot issue in my family, worse then politics or religion. It is one of the things that divides the three of us. It is one of the things we don't discuss.
I wonder why it is so important to me to help them understand this GT thing, am I in someway flawed?
I do believe that my sisters think my character is flawed.
I prefer to think it has more to do with the nature of Warriors in general.
The need for Warriors to be connected to a group and defend loved ones. My nature and theirs clashing, my A-ness and their O-ness.
This recurring dream only happens once every few months so it is over for now.
Till the next time.
Thanks for listening, again.