I’m sitting here sipping my liquid magnesium (mmm…), relaxing my muscles before bed and I feel like writing a blog… However, I also have about a million other things to do before I watch Gilmore Girls at 10, so this is a quickie.

Scar update #1:

Back in November I wrote briefly about using rosehip oil (aka rosa mosqueta) on a nasty scar on my elbow. I am pleased to report that my scar has continued to improve! Now the scar is barely pink at all and it has shrunk down so that it is hardly raised anymore, only bumpy in a few places. I have barely used the rosehip oil since the summer (I never remember) and I hardly ever massage it either! It is possible that there is another explanation for the sudden healing of this old, old scar since I have done a few homeopathic cleanses since the summer and have had some constitutional acupuncture (although not to that area).

Back/knee/foot update #2:

Back pain = 0, knee pain = 0, foot pain = working on it.

Back in October I gave an update on my back pain and there have been many changes since then. In November I started seeing a physiotherapist (who also performs manipulations) because although my back pain was nearly totally gone, I still had it after running and I continued to have pain in my right arch while running.

The back pain was easily taken care of with exercises to improve my gluteals (I guess I had a flat butt? Not anymore!) and a manipulation to realign my sacroiliac joint (between base of the spine and the pelvis). Immediately my back was fine and has remained pain-free since. My foot is another issue…

I continue to have pain in my right arch while running, and we have worked on this with manipulations to my foot to correct reduced range of motion in some of the joints and now with some stretches. I have been able to increase my running time to about 12 minutes (at the end of which I have moderate pain) slowly. Running in my old, worn out shoes is better than my new shoes and I am running with my orthotics, but not using them day to day. My right foot has felt stiffer and less springy that my left for a long time now and I can already feel improvement since I’ve been seeing the physiotherapist, but I don’t feel that we have finished investigating this mystery yet…

I’m feeling frustrated about it at the moment because it is hard to see other people being able to run freely (and sometimes with horrendous form and other bad habits), but know that I am restricted. I feel that there is something deep to this issue, something on the emotional plane and that this symptom is an opportunity for me to finally resolve it. I just wish it were easier to figure it out! Wish me luck.

Courtesy of Embryology class…

Approximately 50% of all spontaneous abortions are caused by severe chromosomal abnormalities. And often mothers are not even aware of a pregnancy because a miscarriage occurs so early due to abnormalities.

Unfortunately the older the mother, the more likelihood there is of some form of chromosomal abnormality because a woman’s ova are already partially developed at birth and at puberty they complete most of their development. Then this pool of ova is drawn upon over the next 40 years or so for ovulation. So what happens to all those ova while they wait? They are affected by their environment and therefore can be degraded and damaged by what women do to our bodies willingly and what we are exposed to in their environment. We women can’t get away with the same choices as men, who can make new sperm from puberty until death. Yet another reason to care properly for oneself and to be aware and vigilant about the toxins that surround us every day…

Chances of having a baby with Down Syndrome (a less severe chromosomal abnormality) are:

1 in 2000 if the mother is 25 years or younger

1 in 300 if the mother is 35 years or older

1 in 100 if the mother is 40 years or older

Considering that I am turning 27 this year and will not graduate until I am 30, I will most likely fall into the middle bracket above. I want to get married and have babies. I want to have a strong, stable, and fulfilling marriage. Ideally, I would like to be married for several years before having children, but I am also aware of the risks I face for every year after 25 that I don’t have a child. The proverbial clock is ticking! It’s hard to meet my future husband attending a school that is about 15% men (not all of whom are straight!)…

So, my ideal timeline is to meet my match before I graduate, get married soon after, and have babies a few years later (before age 35). All while starting a successful career as a naturopathic doctor… I recently watched the movie “The Secret” which taught me that while I can’t control my destiny, I can request what I want from the universe and by visualizing and believing in what I want to happen, I can attract it to me. However, I am also a firm believer that planning the nitty gritty details of life causes you to miss the unexpected opportunities and does nothing to increase the likelihood of making your “plans” reality.

Changing gears a little…

Babies conceived via using assisted reproductive technology (eg: IVF, GIFT, ZIFT, etc) are at higher risk for prematurity, low birth weight, and infant mortality, often due to increased incidence of multiple births (cost-benefit of IVF dictates the implantation of 4-5 fertilized ova, for example). However even singleton births face risks of low birth weight and malformation, probably due to degeneration or defects in the ova or sperm that caused the conception difficulties/miscarriages in the first place.

Who are we to decide that it is a right to have our own biological children, not a privilege or even just plain luck? Is it wise to assume that we are in the best position to determine and even control our own path or should we accept responsibility for the consequences of our life events and choices (controlling our hormones, marrying later, exposing ourselves to toxins), therefore accepting our “destiny”?

I don’t know the answers to these questions and I don’t presume to judge anyone’s choice except my own. I don’t know what my choice would be if I were unable to conceive a child. I do know that my life choices will have consequences and that there are many options for becoming a parent that are as admirable and valid (perhaps even more so?) than bearing biological children. I’m thankful for being able to read extensive discussions about adoption on the BTD Forums because they have confirmed for me that fostering or adopting are options that I would consider.

Just some food for thought.

Well, school is up and running again, but I am still in "vacation mode" I think... Anatomy exam on Monday and I have barely studied! I just wanted to write a quick blog to comment on how COOL my school is.

My last 2 classes today were Art & Practice followed by Soft Tissue Manipulation. Art & Practice will begin each week with a DRAWING exercise. Today's was to draw ourselves with our greatest problem. Then to draw ourselves WITHOUT our greatest problem. Then to draw what would get us from the first to the second... This was surprisingly hard (and emotional for many). Assignments in this class include: Drawing and presenting our "social atom": ourselves at the centre and rings of people around us as our supporters, stressors, whatever. Creating a visual "life map" of major events/influencers in our lives AND drawing our vision for our futures. Going on a contemplative (all day suggested) "nature walk" and journalling about the experience. The whole class is focused on personal development, learning listening skills/compassion, and generally becoming great healers. THIS IS WHAT SCHOOL SHOULD BE FOR!!!

Following that class I have 4 hours of Soft Tissue Manipulation. This is the class in which we learn basic massage techniques. It is 7 weeks long and consists mostly of practical sessions in which students learn and practice massage on one another. Today we had a little "intro" class in which 50 of us in my section went around the room and introduced ourselves and discussed a bit about why we are becoming NDs, our experience with massage, and any other interesting stuff. For this many people it took a long time, but was FASCINATING! Then we ended the class by learning and giving each other a shoulder/head massage! Sooooo good. And I get to do this every week.

By no means is my program at school easy, affordable, or stress-free, but it is more enjoyable than any other schooling I've ever had. It goes far beyond the purely academic to reach physical, emotional, and spiritual levels.

I just wrote a blog with my ten resolutions for 2007 and realized that most are the same as last year and that they can all pretty much be summed up into one big resolution:

I resolve to do my best to ensure that my life is healthier, happier, and more peaceful than ever. This means:

- eating well, exercising regularly, and getting enough sleep

- making time to spend with friends and family and by myself

- refusing to let anxiety, boredom, or insecurity drive my decisions

- being honest and authentic with myself and others