I would like to ask for your support in whatever form it may take over the next several days, whether it be prayer, thought, sending vibes, etc.

On Thursday Gordon and I went to the OB/GYN for our first prenatal appointment. We had the ultrasound, and there was no detectable heartbeat, and it appears that there has been no fetal growth in approximately 2 weeks.

We had another ultrasound today to see if anything has changed - there was a *very* slim chance that everything was fine, but it turned out that this pregnancy is over. I will be undergoing a D&C on Thursday since I have not begun to miscarry. I still feel completely pregnant, and I am having all the typical symptoms and signs of a 'normal' pregnancy so far.

I will probably not be posting much over the next several days as I move through this process. My energy level varies widely, but even at its highest right now it isn't very high. I will let you know what is going on as I feel able to, or I will ask Gordon to post for me.

Also, I want everyone to know that while this has been a shock for us, over the course of this weekend I have moved into a state of gentle surrender about it. It will be what it is, and I am working through my emotions about it as best I can. My intention is to move through this with as much grace and ease as possible.

So please keep Gordon, me, and our child in your hearts and minds over the next few days. I would be most grateful.

Thank you.

Cassandra