Ok, I’m starting to get embarrassed by my ever looming day count- Isa (1 day) Lola (2 days) Laura (6 days)!!! So……………….

Have you ever had that feeling of hitting your head against a wall? I’m not talking just bumping into a wall turning around and going the other direction, I’m talking, literally bang, bang, bang over and over again, getting a bruise, bang, bang, bang…….continuing to do it. That is the point I’m at right now. I see myself hitting my head against the wall, and yet I have done it for so long, I don’t really know what else I would do with myself if I stopped. Make sense?

I feel I have gotten to a healing plateau, I know I need a change, but I’m just not sure what it is. Everyone is being so helpful with ideas, my problem is that I have such a headache from doing this for so long, that I can’t think clearly enough to decide what changes I need to make and make them.

I guess we all have our own walls. Once you figure out what they are (wheat, sugar, coffee) you can make the conscious decision to turn away. Until you recognized them, bang, bang, bang……………………………….