Hi all, I just wanted to check in a bit about my progress through this depression after a couple of good weeks of compliance on the BTD. The good news, as I knew it would be, is that I’m doing much better. I wouldn’t say that I’m my bright cheery self just yet, but I think that I’ve passed through the thickest, darkest part of the forest. I’ve stayed strictly compliant with the animal protein by eating only a little turkey, and trying to emphasize highly bennie fishes like tuna. I’ve not had too much fruit, but have been loading up on the veggies. I’ve also “splurged” on fresh tofu, and have benefited from it. I shall try to cut down on coffee, and drink green tea instead…but if you’ve read my blog for any time, you know that coffee is a nectar for my soul…so it’s a “try” without too much pressure!!

The best news is that I’m headed back to Cali to enjoy the Thanksgiving holiday, so I’ll be able to see my best friends. I know few others who can love me for me than the ones that I’ve left behind on the left coast. It will be nice to escape there for a few days.

Here’s hoping that you all have safe and happy holidays…be well…

ps-MANY congrats to blogger Melissa for bringing a new life into her family and this world!

It seems that this is the season for me to fall into a depression after staving it off for so many months. I walked around the edges of it for much of this summer, happily diverting my attention with sunshine, green grass, warm breezes and free days. But with school (Read:Stress) being back in session, the weather changing, darkness coming on, and my recent life decisions filtering through my block head, it appears that the Unavoidable has found me. It’s found me, and hopped into bed right next to me. Talk about an unwelcome guest!

Forgetting the food compliance piece of the BTD, I’ve done everything right. I’ve gotten back into therapy (where else can you go and talk about yourself for an hour and not be judged!!), have been exercising intensely several times a week, and forcing myself to go to bed on time so that I can get 8 hours of sleep nightly. I think that because I have forgotten the food compliance piece of the BTD, things have yet to level out or get better. They are getting worse as I head deeper into the murky woods of this episode.

With tomorrow’s shopping trip to the grocery store, I will be purchasing only bennies and neutrals, thus ending my weeks long spree of sugar, sugar, and more sugar. I also have deflect, and a few other AB friendly products from Dr. D’s store that will make their way into my daily diet. I am hoping with all my soul that this balancing out of my body’s systems will light the way for the rest of my journey through this depression. It’s no fun for me, or those around me, and I’m tired of feeling so detached from the world. On one hand, it is interesting to watch this one from the inside looking out (being detached rather than sad this time), but on the other millions of hands, it is a crummy feeling being trapped inside of oneself.