Archives for: November 2005, 07
It's 2:30 am, and I am still wired from going to class today, so I thought I'd check in here.
My apologies for not having been more attentive to my blogging here. I have been dealing with so many changes in my life that it has been a challenge to handle things without the added responsibility of blogging here, too.
I'd like to say that will change soon, but I don't feel like I can commit to that yet! Suffice it to say that I would LIKE to blog more frequently - I feel it helps me stay more accountable for following the BTD, and it is also wonderful to be part of a group of like-minded people.
As for what's going on in my life, I've just come out of another incredible, life-changing weekend at school, and I am still processing some of the realizations that I've had. At school they often say that this is 'school the way you always wished it would be', and it truly is.
One of my realizations this weekend is that I am very aware of my body and what goes on in it, but that I often ignore whatever it is. I don't deal with the issue, or I deal with it partially and ignore what I've been told I can do to resolve it. As an example of the former, I walked on a broken leg for over three months before I went to a doctor. As an example of the latter, I know what I'm supposed to do to heal my digestive issues, and I haven't followed through on it. I neglect my body's physical needs!
As a result of this realization, I've made a committment to nurture myself by eating to nourish my body for the long-term. Another committment I made is to get a minimum of 30 minutes of exercise twice a week. These are huge for me. In the past, I often viewed these things as "I shoulds" or "I have tos", and the shift is that these are acts of loving kindness toward myself.
So why is is so easy to be attentive and nurturing towards others, and so neglectful towards ourselves?
I'm helping Anne move tomorrow, so that counts as exercise. One down, one to go for this week!