Friday, December 31, 2004

It simply amazes me that it has been 2weeks since my last blog. I apologize and hope to do better starting tomorrow. There are a lot of things that I figured would start next week, although I have to say that I believe that certain things will be starting sooner. Let me explain.

I have had years – many it seems – where I have started a diet in September and followed it carefully through the holidays. I have to say that it is always difficult, but it feels SO wonderful coming out of the holidays thinner than going in. Most of the time when I would do this, I was following Diet Center, which was very low starch, so that plan would work well for me.

This is not one of those years, however, and as I sit here typing, I feel awful. I either have a cold or my allergies are acting up – something I haven’t dealt with all year – I feel fat and bloated and not myself. I was originally going to start cleaning up my act this coming Sunday, but my health has dictated that I start now. I just can’t keep eating this way. I feel horrible: sick, out of energy, full of cravings, etc. It’s no longer a matter of giving into temptation. I simply can’t eat another cookie.

I realize that this year my body has become accustomed to following the BTD, and following it relatively carefully. It’s odd because I often feel that I am not following the program nearly carefully enough. I aim for 80% bennie/neutrals overall, and I have to say that I don’t really follow portions at all. I’ve realized this month that I have actually been following the diet much more closely than I thought. This past month I have eaten more of my two worst avoids, wheat and corn syrup, than I probably have in all the months previous combined. I didn’t realize it until I started really eating off program how closely I actually was following it.

OK – enough of that. I’ve already started to modify my eating and starting tomorrow I’m moving forward to clean up my act. The first thing that I need to do is to get the avoids out of my diet for a few days completely. I need to clean up. I will get cleaned up. I just can’t go on like this. This has been a problematic year for me in many ways, and I would like to start this coming year fresh. I’ve made amazing strides in my health and diet this past year, but I would like to move on from here.

A little bit more about T-tapping now. On January 4, 2005, Teresa Tapp is going to run a contest for her up and coming book. Here is some more information about the contest:

http://t-tapp.com/challenge-entry/

I am going to do this contest and see for myself. I’m going to get clean with my diet and do the contest, and I’ll let you know how things come along.

Well, I’m off for the moment. I intend to start blogging more often this coming year. Hopefully that will be one of several resolutions that sticks! Have a wonderful New Year’s Eve tonight. We have decided to pick up a steamed lobster and have some goat cheese, a nice salad, some fruit and maybe some yummy chocolate-dipped strawberries for desert. I’m going to keep it as beneficial as possible, and, although I might have a champagne toast at midnight (if I can stay up that late), I am going to stick to sparkling apple juice overall. I would like to wake up feeling good tomorrow and ready for the fresh start.

I wish for you all a wonderful 2005. I’ll post again next year!