Tuesday, December 14, 2004

I cannot believe that it has been 2 weeks since my last blog. I apologize for that. Life has been typically “holiday” chaotic, and I am tired a lot. Much of my state of fatigue has been related to eating poorly. I can honestly say that one of the other reasons that I took a blogging hiatus was that I felt that people would be more interested in reading from bloggers who were more compliant than I find myself. It has been just over a year since I started the BTD, and I have really covered the gamut when it comes to my commitment to it. There have been times where I have been completely compliant (and these were the times where I have felt the best, physically), and there have been times where I haven’t eaten on program much at all, and these are the times when I have been dragged down by fatigue and have had to worry about my weight. It is obvious which choice is better, isn’t it? Of course, anyone with food issues knows that making the correct choices isn’t always easy or even do-able. This is one of the reasons that I decided to begin blogging again. I am sure that there are people like me everywhere. I know there are, but the posts on the forum and by the e.mails and comments I receive.

OK – I want to move from that. I haven’t been very compliant the past few weeks. Sometimes I’m able to stick to an eating plan over the holidays and sometimes I’m not able. This is one of the latter years. The biggest part is that I now accept this. I know that, when circumstances change, I will become more compliant at that time. I do the best that I can, and I disregard the falls. There is no other way for me to do it, save being overburdened by guilt and making myself miserable. I have found in nearly all circumstances in life that life is a pendulum. It swings one way, and then swings back the other. Currently I am on the “not taking my food too seriously” side of the swing. At some point, probably soon after the holidays, when junky food isn’t around incessantly, I will swing back the other way. It always happens, so there really is no reason to fret it. The one thing that I know from experience is that I don’t do the non-compliant route for very long or very hard. It’s best to just go with the flow.

I’m going to try to write again in the next day or two about T-Tapping, the great workout that I have “discovered”. I have T-Tapped for the past 3 weeks, and can now fit into jeans that I couldn’t squeeze on a month ago. T-Tapping is to exercise what the BTD is to food.