Archives for: July 2004, 14
Have had a scratchy throat for a couple days now, and today it is officially sore. So I went to the store this morning to stock up on broth and juices and beneficials so that I can feed my body well and heal more quickly.
Ran into Mike as I was heading to the store - he and I talked some more about my new relationship. He was none too happy about it, and got emotional again. Asked me a bunch more questions about how things with BF got started, when I signed up for eharmony, etc. He told me that I was special, and 'real' (as opposed to the fake LA-types one often finds out here). I wish I'd know what his feelings really were a long time ago. I would have nipped that in the bud, and perhaps not spent time with him or limited my time with him. And I would have made *sure* that it was clear that I did not want a relationship with him no matter what. I feel bad for him, but I also know that I'm following the path I'm meant to follow, and that Mike and I would NEVER work out in a million years.
After that, I went to Trader Joe's and got pineapple juice, bananas, raspberries, cherries, lamb, spinach, peaches, dates, etc. All good stuff. Got home and put it all away, and then showered and got to bed around 12:30 this afternoon. Didn't sleep very well, though. My throat and the heat kept waking me up, and the cats didn't settle in around me like they usually do. In short, we were all restless. It was 104 degrees outside, and though it was cool and dark inside, we just couldn't sleep. I finally got up about 10:30 pm and called BF and left a message, called Anne and told her I'd just woken up, and started getting ready for work.
BF told me that I'm more than welcome to use his real name on my blog, and talk about him as much as I want. So his real name is Gordon, and I think he just wants to hear that I love him through another means of communication! ; ) Love you, Gordon! (Nothing like the modern day equivalent of shouting it from the rooftops, eh?)
I've been working hard at cleaning up my diet since my vacation, and I've lost three of the eight pounds I put on during my trip. It's a start, and at least I'm almost back to what I consider close to my normal weight. Drank a cherry juice/banana/protein powder smoothie after I got to work, and then had some incredible long-stem raspberries during my break. Yum. And I've got lamb chop and green beans for lunch, and some leftover omelet from brunch the other day (brie cheese, mushrooms, and chicken) for another 'meal' if I'm hungry at my second break. And I've also got lemon and honey to mix with hot water or tea for my throat.
Tomorrow I hope to go to the chiropractor in the morning, sleep during the day, and spend the evening with Gordon before coming to work. Can't wait to see him! (How could I NOT have fallen for a man who kissed me on a streetcorner in the POURING rain and danced with me in the Guggenheim Museum in NYC?)