Archives for: June 2004, 08
I went home sick from work yesterday - was nauseous, achy, etc. Yuck. Got home and slept 13 hours. I guess I needed it. I feel okay tonight, but I am tired and a bit cranky. Didn't eat much because of the nausea, but when I woke up about 3pm, I was STARVING, which I took as a good sign. Ate a little bit of fruit (cherries, blueberries and banana) and yogurt, watched Oprah, and went back to bed. Woke up at 11pm and got ready for work.
I wasn't hungry when I got up, but by my 2am break was hungry again, and ate more fruit and yogurt and went for a short walk around the building.
I brought some shrimp and artichoke hearts for lunch, assuming that I'll be hungry.
I'm stressed because my grandmother is not doing very well, and we (the family) are moving her into an assisted living facility next week. And I have to be there to help clean out the house and get the things I want from the house, not to mention to spend time with my grandmother for what may very well be the last time. Sh'e 91, and in the last few weeks she has lost a great deal of her eyesight, and is declining pretty quickly. She doesn't need a nursing home yet, but she DOES need someone to cook for her and help her with things. We realized recently that she can't cook anymore and has been subsisting on peanut butter and crackers. Not good, even though the PB is good for her (she's an A-). So we're all going to TX next week to get rid of stuff from the house, and fix it up and put it on the market.
My dad went by the house yesterday to tell her that she was moving, and I have a feeling that she didn't take the news too well. She's been independent all this time, and only gave up driving last year (Thank God). She probably hasn't left the house since she stopped driving, and though she claims to be independent, she can't even climb more than about a half a step anymore, and can't go to her mailbox at the end of the driveway.... She ISN'T and hasn't been independent in some time. Even so, I suspect that she will not last long in the assisted living facility, even though it is where she needs to be. She's stubborn, and always said that she'd leave the house in a casket before she'd move again.
I will be driving to Texas next week, and will probably return RIGHT before I go to NYC for a week. I wouldn't normally drive to Dallas for something like this, but I get all of Gramma's china, and I'm not shipping it or flying with it - it's too fragile, and there's too much of it. So I have to drive to get it and get it home. It will be lovely to have my grandmother's things and not have them associated with her passing away for me to get them, and it will be GREAT to see my family, even if the circumstances are not the most exciting.
I'm mostly stressed because I know that I'm losing my grandmother even though I know we're doing the right thing, and I also think I may lose my job over this unexpected trip. I am planning on leaving anyway, but I had planned on doing so on my own terms, too. I have a feeling they aren't going to look at this with too much understanding. I could be wrong, but I won't know until I talk with the Operations Manager.