Omigosh! I had the yummiest breakfast today ever! I don’t know if it’s legal to have such a perfect start to one’s day…all I need is my lake in the Adirondacks and I’d be at complete peace with the world. I had marinated Orange Roughy that I didn’t get to cook for dinner last night with rice and zucchini. Okay, here’s what I did: marinade—tiny bit of olive oil, thyme, parsley, garlic, sage, rosemary and blackened seasoning all mixed into the fish in a plastic bag overnight (this overnight thing may be the trick…). The rest was simply a matter of throwing the fish in some foil on the grill (thereby steaming it) with the zucchini sliced in half (longways) also on the grill. The rice came out of the rice cooker… That’s it, no butter, no additional spices, nothing…it was bliss on a plate! I’m psyched because I still have half of the fillet and zucchini left to enjoy with lunch…

On other notes, life here is chugging along fine. But I’m not thrilled with simply chugging. I’ll be done with classes tomorrow (only the thesis left for the summer) and am leaving for home (Upstate NY) on Tuesday. I’ll be dealing with some family health stuff there for a couple of weeks (with a few weddings thrown in). I will have time for reflection and journaling whilst in NY, but will still be pretty pressured and busy. I yearn for solitude and quietness. It has been such a hectic year (academically, financially, everything), that I want a slower pace so that I can go gentle with my self (rather than just saying that I will) and savor the special moments in each moment. I’m considering reconsidering the PhD to just go back to work in the classroom and enjoy my personal life. I have a year to think about it regardless (won’t start any doctorate until 2005), and will carefully consider what exactly it is that I want for the next couple of years. The point is that I don’t know if I want to continue “chugging along” for the next couple of years, or if I want to really enjoy my TIME before my little ones arrive. Once I become a mother, there’s no question that it’ll be all about “them,” not me anymore…so maybe I want to really enjoy my me time now.

(Notice that if I keep on this train of thought, it will lead to a very elaborate homework avoidance scheme…I only have one case study left to do for the whole program [except for the rest of the thesis this summer], and I’m grilling for b-fast, contemplating my life, doing laundry and dishes, submitting rambling blogs…tee hee…I’ll do anything to get out of homework!!)

Okay, BTD dieters and friends, now that I’ve busted myself for procrastinating, I’ll sign out here. CASE STUDY, HERE I COME!! I was serious about the not being sure what I want to do with my self over the next couple of years, but there’s plenty of time for reflection about that after the dreaded assignment is complete!

Here’s hoping that this finds you all well and happy…take care of you…smile…breathe…relax…enjoy…