Watched a movie this morning "Requiem for a Dream". NOT A HAPPY STORY! Ellen Burstyn was amazing, and the rest of the cast (one of the Wayans brothers, some guy whose name I've completely forgotten, and Jennifer Connelly) was very good, too. Gave the movie back to Mike, borrowed "Shadowlands" to watch tomorrow, and went to bed around 12:30 this afternoon.

Didn't sleep well - woke up a few times, and finally got up around 9pm. Did an hour of Pilates, which I should be doing nearly daily - I can really feel the difference in how flexible I am these days. Can't wait to get back to 'normal'!

Have more lamb chop and another artichoke for lunch today. Had a smoothie with pineapple juice and protein powder for breakfast, and some date/almond rolls and a slice of dried pineapple for a snack. I've got more of those and some trail mix for my next snack.

I'm finding that I'm not generally very hungry working this night shift, but that I do make myself eat a little something regularly anyway. And I crave more sugar at night. Not a good thing! Tonight is different, though. I'm actually gut hungry right now (have been for about 30 minutes already), and don't go to lunch for another 20 minutes. If I had to wait longer than the next 20 minutes, I'd probably eat my keyboard. Don't know what my being hungry means since I'm usually NOT hungry, but whatever. I'll feed my body some yummy and beneficial lamb and artichoke, and go from there.

Tomorrow is an improv class in the evening, so I have to get to bed by 10 am to get up by 6pm and get to class by 7. If I have time I'll watch "Shadowlands" after improv class, and return it to the video store before I come to work.

Went grocery shopping this morning - I am craving fruit, so I bought mangos, watermelon, strawberries, blueberries, pineapple, and some juices - pomegranate, pineapple, and my favorite - mango lemonade. Gotta love Trader Joe's! Could NOT get the mango lemonade open tonight twisted that cap until my wrist hurt, and then gave up and had pineapple juice instead. Opened THAT no problem! Will have to see if Mike can help me open the mango lemonade.

I was reading Rachel's blog recently about the horse Norman, and how after thinking about Norman and that now she calls that voice in her head Norman because it is so stubborn and unwilling to change. Well, after rolling that around in my brain for a few days, somehow I started calling that voice in MY head Norman, and I'm finding that it is making a difference for me. WHY, I don't know, but somehow calling that voice by NAME and *telling* it that I'm ignoring it has made a difference for me. It's only been a couple of days, but at least I am recognizing that stubborn, whining voice as the voice of Norman, and calling its bluff more often than not, and telling it that I'm NOT giving into it.