2/23/04 10:22 PM

I watched a part of “Anna Bares All” on E! last night. I think that she looks horrible. Is it sour grapes? I don’t think so. I would hope not. I really thought that she looked good the last time that she lost weight, but she wasn’t as thin as she is now. It’s a lesson to myself, too. I have been as thin as she is now. I dieted (starved, took pills, etc.) to get there, of course, and then I gained it all back plus more. However, I would get to about that size and people, my Mom, especially, would start to tell me that I was getting too thin. I didn’t believe them and have always felt that I never really “succeeded” at dieting because I never hit that magical number of 150. I look like Anna looks now at 160. It is very hard for me to get there and even harder for me to stay there. I would like to get there again – the sensible way, using the BTD. We’ll see.

I have found a good “groove” with respect to the program. I am working out a minimum of 4x per week. This consists of 4 step classes and 3 to 4 days per week of some sort of weight training. I feel pretty good about it all. I also feel good about the eating program. I have found way to be full, to keep the cravings at bay, and to stay on track for that 80% compliance. I have added the protein powder with each meal. That’s a lot of protein, but it works for me. I also make sure to eat a starch with each meal. This is almost always a piece of Ezekiel bread OR brown/wild rice mixed with adzuki beans. The rice/bean mixture, in particular, is very filling. I put some ghee on it and mix in some nutritional yeast flakes and it is a powerful thing to eat. I don’t do food combining at all, so I don’t know if that is against the rules, but it works well for me.

I am eating quite a bit of fat, but it all beneficial. I eat olive oil on salads and ghee on just about everything else. The one thing that is interesting about ghee is that a little goes a LONG way. If you use too much, it is sort of disgusting. I cook with it and I put it on my Ezekiel or in with my rice and beans. I don’t necessarily eat the leanest cuts of meat either. I find really lean meat somewhat gross, but I don’t go for the super fat stuff either (well, not on a regular basis, anyway). What I find interesting is that I don’t think that the fat is affecting my weight loss. BTW, I did lose 2 more pounds the last time that I was on the scale. That was a 2-pound loss over the period of 2-3 weeks. That’s not as fast as I would like, but it’s a little step in the right direction, and every little bit helps.

OK – pooping out. I’ll write soon!