Archives for: September 2006, 16
Hi my name is Melissa, and I'm addicted to milk. A couple weeks ago I had a tiny taste of some milk chocolate, and it's just been a roller coaster ever since. Though I've never been addicted to anything traditionally considered addictive, this seems to follow the same pattern. It makes me feel kind of good for ten minutes or so, then I turn into grumpasaurus, then I get tired. It's not long before I want more, and more of it than the last time. Then I make excuses for eating more, like "I already blew it today, I'll give it up tomorrow" I had to just decide that now is now, regardless of what was 10 minutes ago, and as of NOW, I'm not going to eat milk anymore. It's been about 3 days now that I've been "sober" and the temptation is beginning to decrease. My biggest symptom of casein intolerance is the addictive aspect, but I also get more celiac symptoms and complications when I have casein.
To answer a question about ghee, I seem to do fine with it. I do buy the ghee that says it's casein free. When I try to make it I often cook it just a bit too long in an effort to make sure all the casein comes out of it. I'm a big fan of butter, but when I have it, it does seem to make it harder for me to stay away from milk.
My soy reaction is still pretty apparent too, my tummy really doesn't like it. Don't even get me started on corn...not in this blog.
I shouldn't know all this information about my avoids! A couple months ago I thought I'd never eat another avoid as long as I lived, I just don't know what is up with me. Maybe hypnotherapy would help? I simply have a very hard time changing my attitude about food. I know what I should and shouldn't eat, and I know the consequences of straying from that, yet I still have moments of weakness, which stretch out into weeks at times. This time in my recovery, I'm focusing first on those avoids that are the most addictive. Dairy, corn and sugar are the ones that top that list for me. (Wheat is history, but it was once up there). Most other avoids I could take or leave, and often only eat for convenience. The trouble with corn addiction is that it is so nearly impossible to completely eliminate it from my diet...it's in everything, and only labelled as such as small fraction of the time.
Tomorrow is another day, but today was better than yesterday, so forward I go...