Archives for: February 2005, 11
I am often shocked at my own attachment to certain foods, and I've been BTDieting for 5 years (more or less). How I can feel so fond about foods that I know make me sick is beyond me. I've come a long way, especially since my celiac disease has taught me how awful a food can be to me, but I don't know if I'll ever get past all my attachments. Next Christmas will I still indulge in milk-sugar-full white chocolate? Now I know it fills me with more anxiety (and gas) than any emotional reward it gives me in my mouth, will I finally learn to avoid it? Next birthday, will I once again eat so much nearly-compliant -but sugar-filled cake? I hope I'll learn. If a twinkie punched you in the mouth each time you ate it, would you keep coming back? Judging from past mistakes, yeah, maybe... NO! Don't do it!
Part of the journey is to form new attachments to beneficial foods. I now have an attachment to sweet potatoes, steamed broccoli drizzled with olive oil and trocomare, brazilian collard greens, almond butter, salmon, cod, lamb, beef, buffalo, salad greens with lemon/olive oil dressing. Problem is, they're harder to prepare than a twinkie. I guess that's where the banana, egg, or protein powder comes in.
Not that I ever eat twinkies anymore, 5+ years twinkie free! Does that mean I'm clean & sober? I'm about to check into sugarholics anonymous. I've been doing better in my quest to give up sugar, and I'm feeling better all along the way, but I still slip up now and then...I guess that's how progress is made, just keep trying!