Archives for: November 2005, 06
Last night the Bible study group that my husband and I belong to had a dessert party. We were celebrating the recent marriage of one of our members. Everyone brought a gift for the newlyweds and a dessert. I knew that there wouldn't be anything good for a Type O unless I brought it. I took Cranberry Crunch, a recipe that I got off of this website. My plan was to get a plate of my own dessert and stay away for all of the avoids.
There was a flaw in my plan. As we went around the dessert table, I passed the first few selections. A woman behind me in line said, "Don't pass that one. I made it and it is really good. It has apples, pineapple and blueberry." I could see that it also had a thick wheat crust, but what was I to do? I put some of her dessert on my plate, as well as some of my Cranberry Crunch.
Though the plan was in danger, there was still time to salvage it. I didn't have to eat any of the crust. I could have picked out the fruit. We were all moving around eating and talking. No one would have known if I hadn't eaten it at all.
But I abandoned the plan and ate the dessert. Not only that, having abandoned the plan and the BTD, I tried a piece of pumpkin pie as well. It was as if having eaten one avoid, I just decided to make a night of it.
This morning I was really ashamed of myself. I was also faced with a choice. Was I going to reclaim control and limit this to a one-night lapse? Or would I compound the error and binge for a day or two? Discipline returned. I ate no avoids today.
Fortunately I did not feel any problems with indigestion. I did however feel drowsy all day. I nearly fell asleep in church this morning, and I am tired earlier than usual tonight. The temporary pleasure of the avoids was not worth it. Next time I plan to stay with the plan.